most basic right and need - is to sleep

 basic rights and need of any human being is to be able to sleep well.
Most of course do not succeed.
Most will give themselves every opportunity and set up in order to achieve a human right when the body repairs itself and sets one up for the following day.

this is even more important if the body is ill, chronically ill and disabled.
those of us who are so, need our 'beauty' 'health providing' sleep.

it is when we sleep that the body repairs itself of damage, decay and battle.

what if the night is the battle ground as well as in my case.
five full years this battle ground is both day and night with the healthcare provider.

IT IS SOMETHING YOU CANNOT EXPLAIN, JUST LOADS OF FOAM THROWN AT ME.  THATS ALL - ITS CALLED 'FLINGING'

lets say, most provide themselves with a good bed and mattress, its a given you all want to sleep on the best for the 'rest.'

i am no different.
the only issue being the HSE took all my assets by their mismanagement of my case.
therefore when all the savings i had were used in fleeing a housing situation from hell (which never should have happened) i have become more beholden to the state for every need, including the bed.

i prepared for my future, in the sense i never envisaged what did happen and i never thought i would be penniless.

thus is the stuff that they take and so they do not give a damn that this has happened.

i squarely tell the HSE, if they had left well enough alone i could have been fully independent.
i am now not so.
i am dependent.
and that also includes providing for a sick body.
i flung the last item back in the health centre, i was at wits end.

THERE ISNT A LOT YOU CAN SAY ABOUT THIS LOT.  JUST A LOT OF FOAM, THATS ALL AND THATS IT.

the thing they flung at me to sleep on is not suitable and never was - yes they have given me similar, so similar that they have 'in stock' two types of mattresses for the sick, air beds and foam toppers and mattresses.
these do one thing only, relieve bed sores.
something i am unlikely to suffer from as i trash like hell in my bed.

so they give me heat creating surfaces, that are ill supportive and painful and do more harm than good.

i do a small video today.  i place it here to show my mood, it isnt good.
the frame of a very small hospital bed is in my bedroom, there is no mattress and there is no body lying there.
i am taking up space elsewhere on an equally bad mattress but certainly better than the one given to me by our healthcare provider.